March 24^th 2015

I would like to clarify that most rational minds, including my Wife, do not agree with the Methods used to bring me inline on a timetable, that is my life path in this turn of Ascension. It has always been for me for last 15 years that I need to reach a certain level of Vibrational Energy so I could actually start the path that I was to accomplish in this Life Turn. As I have failed myself by continually immersing myself into 3D addictions of every kind knowing that, I could stop at any time and join my life path almost in step.  I continually was amazed that my angelic support system never failed me. As I had pushed Arch Angel Michael, [my true self-family that is still has puzzle pieces missing, but coming close to a point of my understanding today] to stop interacting with me, except to express my lack. Until in late summer of 2008, while at work as shop leader for Motive Power Locomotive Industry. Arc Angel Michael gave me a choice that day, after a long period of silence, to start being the person, which my heart yearned to be. If not I would be move to a place where I could move forward. In 2009, I received the same message with the hint that it might not be a pleasant place, possibly prison if I continued my lack.  I was not breaking the law by any means, to that extent, but I felt the message deeply and really started to buckle down and attempted to work on myself, clouded by a truth of difficulty that never existed. My self-doubt was only my lack of self-love, which I did not understand. I was concerned more of validation from Jesus and Michael, that I could not see that I had to Love myself first, to lift the first veil that society had wrap so tightly around me. Then my whole life started to unravel, first a divorce that lead to sex not Love as I played the playboy game. Then my Grandson Jaden died, who is about to rejoin us again in 2015. It was a tragic death, a life path of Jaden’s, he ended by running blocks through an apartment complex into traffic during morning rush hour, 4 days after his 4^th birthday and second day of school. {check these facts gary]  Much karma was delivered that day, I know this, as document in the weeks that followed. Then my Daughter used this to take control of her own life with drugs, sex and self-destruction, as she plunged deeper into the abyss, when her newborn twins where given away by her Mother Victoria. As I swirled into the abyss with her, enabling her as I tried to protect her, as I lost my job and home, and my daughter to prison, not me. My saving- grace was when I pursued my lust indulgent behavior to sooth my pain, I found Angel, whom is truly the love of my life today. A broken, sad , desperate being at that time, who was at the end of her options for survival. A spark of compassion in me, that turned out to be also my lifeline, and blessed with our new home on Cougar Creek. Angel and I complete opposites born exactly half a year apart, though six years to my age in difference. The Ying and Yang of completion of each other as we have come so far, so fast in a blink of an eye.      

March 19^th 2015

My first lesson from my new teacher was the stretching of my rational Mind to the point of instilling fear. Once again I was about to throw all my Guides and Angels away from me, except Jesus. As I Had done two years prior and worked my way back again with a new understanding of self. This time as I worked my teachings.  I went into my Heart, which was once again disconnected from me as where my Angels. Mother Mary who promised to never leave no matter what, who was there with me, stated that she was there only as an observer, and could not answer my questions of truth. I asked why as Mary replied “ my ancient teacher “. The last time and first time when my senses where so flipped inside out that I completely lost all direction from self and all. Mary truly saved my soul, as she pulled me to safety during my first days of knowing her. As The One engaged the I Am of me. To take control of His self-indulged life path with the Legion of Light, who now is The Order of Light in the energy of Melchizedek, by my Right of Arch Angel Michael! This sparked an intense fear in me, on March 19. Just 4 days earlier, as I spent the evening holding myself in deep love, As The One and The Other. Who I found was 2 bits of my self-divided, was brought back together as a whole , after 2 years of integration as Mother Mary held him in obedience of his promise To Me, while Ascended Master Jesus, Arc Angel Michael and Mother Mary stood as witnesses. As The One Pledged, His-Self to Me, even though deceived by his own lack or fear. I reacted in fear of self once again, as I felt The One, slipping back.  As my world continued to spin as I lost self-control. I remembered what brought the one and the other back together just a few days earlier.

The love of self, this lesson was not of love for Me but for my Bifurcated Body into Duality as my Shadow became independent from Me. from my Heart by my Teacher, who was at this time the enemy who I fought. I said three words. I LOVE YOU. My teacher stood still for a brief moment and asked “What you I say” I repeated I love you, as all my senses returned and He praised me for my completion of my first lesson of many to come. I did come to see, what a self-empowering lesson it was. The most important lesson to date, that it came to be. As my Teacher taught me that this is how I may be attacked in days to come as I stand on the Front lines for the people of humanity as the control mechanisms’ fall. This was My Life Path, that I needed to learn. For this is why I agreed to be on this life plane today.  I joined my life path in step once again.